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Those are BIG questions. From my perspective of living a large life, it would seem that everyone knows me. Many days I feel like I have met a quarter of the world, even though it may just have been twenty or thirty thousand people or so. Still, that’s a lot of people.
The life I am living now and the life I have lived are different, but with the same elements dialed WAY DOWN. I have to chuckle at that. Who doesn’t look back on their life and go…”whoa THAT happened?” Or “I did that? Did I go there? I felt what? I saw who?”
I’ve learned simpler is just…simpler!
Instead of just cutting and pasting my bio, I’d rather give you the “Cliff Notes" version of my working life.
My life, so far, has been diverse, exciting, challenging, painful, exhilarating, awe-inspiring, a constant evolution and fun!
I feel like I’m a very fortunate, fortunate person.
In 1991 after 16 years in entertainment as a musical theater performer, actor, singer, dancer, choreographer, theater artistic director, stunt person, professional water skier and circus artist (plus various and sundry day jobs - politics, veterinary medicine, theater management - to keep my performance “habit” going) I had come to an emotional cliff. The stress of the industry was contributing to the loss of sleep, anxiety, and disordered eating. All of that was VERY new to me.
It is said people get into “show biz” BECAUSE they are insecure and need the recognition and adulation. I am not sure that is true in all cases. I loved what I did with my talents. I would do a show for one person or record a CD even if no one bought it. For me, it was the love of the craft. Still, it was always an up and down profession.
I began taking a Kundalini yoga class in Orlando, Florida with students of Yogi Bhajan - the Sikh who brought Kundalini yoga to the US. They were either training to be teachers of Kundalini or were already certified. This led me to actually take classes with Yogi Bhajan. Here is where I can insert “…and the rest is history.”
For me, to this day meditation is not a panacea or a Band-aid. It is a way of life.
That being said, my life did not get any less busy as the years went on.
I kept studying with various teachers throughout the US and then decided that if it helped me others might also benefit. I taught easy, beginner classes in breath exercise and movement while still heavily involved in entertainment and business.
After working in many stage shows, in television and film, coaching in stunts and performing, adjudicating competitions in theater, I moved to Canada and with a partner started a television production company. Oh, yes, and we invested in a restaurant. What is the old adage about giving a busy person something to do?
The television company produced 2 informational series and two pilots. These series were the first to be shot in HD. Everyone thought we were crazy. We all know how that went!
At this time, I only taught in a disordered eating facility, kept up with my personal practice and kept studying.
After co-owning one more restaurant, a cinema, and a fitness center later, I had had enough and returned to the US to teach meditation and to sing. I did one more television series and hung up my acting career.
A label and producer approached me about recording a healing CD and Spirit Oasis, my third and last CD, was born. Four years later I hung up my singing career.
All I could think about was teaching meditation and learning more.
Concurrently, I was teaching youth, in the LGBTQ community, seniors, those in recovery, and veterans.
I also decided to train as a Qigong instructor. (Qigong is the mother of Tai Chi but not a martial art. It is a moving meditation.) I had been practicing Qigong for many years and it was a natural fit.
This is when the new technique I have developed was born.
Today, I am working in juvenile justice teaching my Moving Meditation technique based on the 5 elements I have combined through years of trial and error.
In the New Year, I am taking that technique, with a few minor adjustments, and applying it to a school in an at-risk community. I will be teaching staff and students.
My ultimate goal is to make this technique available to staff within these facilities so they may instruct the residents and students. Who knows the community better than someone who is on the inside?
This is where my book - Moving Meditation During Incarceration: A Teaching Guide for Staff and Residents in the Juvenile Justice System- comes in very handy. The end of the book is my entire method, made accessible to anyone who wants to learn it, practice it, or teach it. Along with personal and online support from me nearly any interested teacher can learn and teach this technique .
So there you have it. The long and less long of it.
"Go with the flow” is my companion. Although, I imagine I test and vex it on occasion. I could say life is what you get out of it but I imagine you’ve heard that already.
Life is life.
Do with it as you see fit.
See fit to do something worthwhile for yourself and others.
Feel free to contact me with your comments, input or to introduce MoVing Meditation with KaZ in your community or facility.
This is an excerpt from my upcoming book: "Moving Meditation During Incarceration: a Teaching Story and Guide for Juvenile Justice."
Picture you are teaching a one-on-one class with a student. In my case, we were working on breath work and energy work. We started by sitting in chairs facing each other. We had closed our eyes and were just taking some deep breaths - going through a little bit of breath work and relaxation work.
All of a sudden I felt that my student was not there anymore. I opened my eyes and he was standing in the back of the room. I said, "What's up?" And he said, "I gotta fart." I tried to be as cool as possible with that statement. What I mean by that is I tried so hard not to laugh about it. It was funny and endearing and FUNNY! When is anyone so REAL with someone they don't know well; someone they are just beginning to trust?
Mind you, these young men take my class after they have had their dinner and a shower. YOU KNOW that gas will sneak up on you after you eat; especially if you are eating a more institutionalized meal. He said he wanted to be respectful of me and not "stink me out" with the smell. I said that it was perfectly OK and not to be concerned about it at all. Then he said: “Yes, it's a natural bodily function." I was so proud of him to have that attitude. My students can be so real and genuine, that is why I love teaching them. They have been through tough times and still can be honest. (Sometimes VERY honest!)
So he's standing there waving his gym shorts around and actually very discreetly smelling to see if it smelled bad. Can you imagine? All out of respect for me AND so he wasn't holding it in struggling with pain the entire class. Maybe we ALL can take a lesson from that.
Then he just came back to the chair and we finished up the session. It happened to him again at the end of the session, but by then we were completely relaxed about, I smiled and it became a normal occurrence. (A normal occurrence in ALL of my classes.)
I also told him the story about someone I knew who hated when women burped or farted. He said it was very gross and unladylike. My student looked at me with a very quizzical expression and said: "well, that sounds stupid". Isn't there a Forrest Gump expression about just that?
That leads me to the timeless and wise saying from the Shrek movie: "better out than in".
Indeed, "better out than in". Words to live by.
Thanks for visiting.
As always if you have any comments, or questions OR want to get in touch to arrange a meeting to explore my teachings in your facility, please text, email or call.
It HAS been a while since I posted anything in my blog and vlog. (Where the heck have you been??) I have been really busy teaching at a youth academy. This particular youth academy was formerly a juvenile detention center. An organization known as Sequel Youth Services has taken over several detention facilities in Florida and throughout the US (I believe it is 20 total). They have instituted a drastic and life-altering change in these facilities from being punitive to being rehabilitative. WHAT A CONCEPT! REHABILITATE our youth instead of just incarcerating them and SIMPLY letting them do their time and go back out onto the streets or into the same circumstances.
I was fortunate enough to get involved with the youth academy through my affiliation with Compassionate St. Augustine, in St. Augustine, Florida. This groundbreaking organization was founded by my friend, Caren Goldman. Caren is a journalist, an activist and an all around compassionate person. CSA is a remarkable group of people, coming from a myriad of backgrounds, specifically to foster compassion in our community, county, state and country. AND THEY ARE!! Caren felt my work in Qigong, and meditation would be valuable to the academy and its residents. (Truth be told, I get AS MUCH as I give!) She made a call to the Academy's director and in a couple of months I was teaching.
Now, picture this: I am a small, silver-haired, middle-aged woman, who dresses like someone they have never encountered. How do I dress differently? I exclusively wear a kurta. What is a kurta, you ask? It is a kind of tunic or dress traditionally worn by Indian and Pakistani women. (I get all of my kurtas from India and Pakistan.) It is loose, colorful, tailored and has slits on each side or down the front for ease of movement. I started wearing them years ago because it makes it easy to do my personal practice and to teach. But I digress...
The youth academy residents are young men, ages 13-18, from different counties in Florida, and they are predominately African-American or mixed race. (Yes, I could write volumes about the incarceration of these communities. Very sadly, they reflect the incarcerated community as a whole.) They became residents due to a myriad of offenses. However, truly violent offenders are not kept in this high security facility. They are in maximum security facilities.
Most of these young men are from predominately impoverished communities. Some of them are drug addicted and in recovery, some are fathers, and some are on medication for ADD, ADHD, depression or anxiety. There are also many residents who are being treated for anger issues. (I have taught in similar communities in the past and that is a future blog post.)
I have been working with them for 6 months and the strides we have made together are nothing short of miraculous.
I've been developing a technique for about 5 years that incorporates several healing arts disciplines. They have been my beta testing, so to speak, AND IT IS WORKING!!!
SO what I intend to write here is about that journey. I will publish excerpts from my book: Moving Meditation During Incarceration - A Teaching Guide In Juvenile Justice.
My intention is to make the book available within the juvenile justice system to enable interested staff to learn the technique and teach it, with my coaching, so they can be "boots on the ground". Who better to reinforce these exercises and techniques than someone who has a vested interest in the facility and its residents?
You will read about my direct experiences with the director and assistant director, the staff, and most of all, the residents, via classes, in-person conversations, phone conversations and emails.
Some of it is incredibly funny, some is poignant and some is very sad.
Those elements, though, have made me a better, and stronger teacher. A better, and stronger person.
You will laugh, you will cry, you will be changed!
I am going to do my best to post weekly, or more. So please come back often.
Thanks so much for starting this journey with me.
...and as always, if you want to contact me about my book AND the screenplay being written based on the book, or if you want to learn the simple and extremely effective technique I have developed, please don't hesitate to email, text or call me.
KaZ Cruse Akers is a Master Moving Meditation Instructor. She has taught her unique brand of moving meditation based on breath, energy, Qigong, Kundalini yoga and modern dance movement in person in North America and online worldwide for the last 23 years. It's fun, relaxing, stimulating and almost anyone can do it!